If you read my last post i told you about my wife having breast cancer.  We found out Friday that she has stage 3 breast cancer which spread to her lymph nodes in her armpit and under her collar bone.   Ideally we would have preferred to hear the tumor is was small and all contained in her breast.  Were that the case we'd be heading to surgery and probably radiation to follow up.  The The doctor told us were that the case you have better that 90% recovery which is defined as cancer free and in remission.  My wife's case is we have to head immediately to aggressive chemotherapy for 6 months to shrink the tumor and stop the spread, then surgery and radiation.  She has a 25% of recovery and if she's not in the 25% she's looking at 2-4 years of life expectancy.  

   It's so natural to cry, yell, scream out to God; "why me Lord", "why my wife God"?  Aren't we not good people?  We go church, we regularly volunteer to do many things around the church.  We tithe weekly.  After thinking our parenting days were over we are currently raising grandchild 2 and 3 (we have 6 total and raised 3 of them).  My wife is the least selfish person I know.  I mean to a fault she will put any and everyone's needs and wants ahead of her own.  Everyone has at one time or another (or many times) taken advantage of that and hurt her (to my forever shame I perhaps as more so than anyone else).  I don't know of any other person more justified to shake her fist at God and say "why me after all of done for every person in my life".  

   But if either of us had that feeling towards God is was fleeting.  Here and gone within a second.  We both are mature enough in our faith to understand His thoughts are above our thoughts, His plans are above our plans, his why above our finite ability to understand.  He has a plan for my wife that we aren't able to understand, but do understand it will be far better than any thing we could come up with.  If that plan is to raise our 2nd and 3rd granddaughter until they graduate high school (like we did their older sister) awesome.  Or as we say in the Navy, you stand relieved of the watch, someone else can take over the watch, well done my faithful servant, welcome to my heaven for life everlasting, even better.  I pray on the day, whenever that may be, that the Lord appears to my wife to tell her, like he did the thief next to him on the cross, "today you will be with me in paradise"!!   

For further encourgment on dealing with the storms of life here's a article from one of my favorite pastors Greg Lourie; 

https://harvest.org/resources/gregs-blog/post/our-definition-of-good-vs-gods/